Damn it

I know who will cheer me up when I'm down. I know that I very much embarrassed myself in front of you. I know that liking you is pointless. But I know what I want;
You

I've been feeling very down lately, and no I don't know why.
My closest friends are turning into somewhat bimbos & bitches. And I don't like it at all. My other friends have their other closer friends.
I know what I want. I need to talking to someone I can trust. I know that person can help me. But I dont know how I'm going to go up to that person. I dont have the guts to. That's what I hate myself for. I don't have the guts to do anything.